Ugh, goddamnit. I'm writing english papers I don't need this. |D


Little things set me off sometimes. I just heard this cover of a New Order song today, and the lyrics made me think instantly of Elepon and then... I started getting teary. xD; I'm way too sentimental over him sometimes.

( Big ramble to myself because he's demanding attention atm )

So I've had this little digital 7.1 mpx Nikon point+shoot camera for a year or so, and I only JUST figured out how to put it on manual settings. ;O; I'm so happy, I can actually FOCUS for macro shots. I was despairing, thinking that I'd be stuck with a shitty little 99$ digital, and it would be horrible, since I want to get more into photography once my bjd gets here.

But lo and behold, some fiddling later and the secrets have been unveiled to me. 8O
...
Actually, on second thoughts, and a bit of experimenting later, I think I just haven't been focusing well. Hmm. :O Putting it on manual macro does help though.

( Experimenting with newly discovered focus 8"D )

Also, holy fuck, I made these with eLouai's Candybar doll maker, and UGH THEY KILL ME WITH CUTENESS. <3<3<3 Gosh I love Modern!him. He's so adorable. Fuck. Hurrr and a Misaki thrown in for good measure. Gosh they look so cute together. YOU SHOULD TOTALLY CLICK HERE SO YOU CAN SEE THEM ANIMATE, BECAUSE THEY WINK AND GRIN AND SHIT.

Haven't updated in like, a bazillion years, even though things have happened and shit.
Went down to Sydney for a study trip, that was fun, as it should be. When I came back home it made me see the city I live in with a new light. I My house is on a large hill that overlooks the valley and the view is great. For a few days after the trip, I really appreciated the beauty of living in the country.

Now I just can't wait to get out of her and get to, idk, Brisbane or Sydney. Whichever would be easier to move to.

Ahhhh what else what else what else. As you can see I completely changed my layout. I fiddled with it a few weeks ago but gave up. I like this current one, it reflects my "Elepon <3<3<3" mood.



Which is the big news, actually. Not my journal layout, but Elepon.
As a bjd.

I think I wrote about that a while ago. I'm pleased (read: ecstatic) to say that... I'm getting him.
Not just swooning, I actually literally am getting him. His head has shipped off to me from South Korea as of now and is en route (would have gotten here WEEKS ago but there was a delay with the company's production and everybody who ordered had to wait. D: ). I'm also getting his body shipped to me, and it should be here soon.... hopefully. :| I didn't order it myself, someone else did for me, and I don't have a tracking number or any information about what's going on with it.

Just need 45 more dollars to complete him, which will go towards his hair and clothes. \(^O^)/ He should be all ready in time for Christmas.

I feel guilty though. He's a lot of money. About 480 dollars all up, including all the shipping costs. :| And I'm getting a cheap 160$ body for him as well, from an Australian dealer, where as normal expensive bodies are 400+ on average.

Anyway. Any guilt is overrun with excitement, haha. His head should be getting here in the next couple of days, I'll post pictures when I get him. :D
I'm aiming to have him look somewhat like this (morbidollz Leslie <3)





I can't really think of anything else to talk about. Just thought I'd mention it, since I might end up making a separate journal for doll and Elepon things.

Coming out of my long Livejournal hiatus to post this.

You are a Chibi Seme!

You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyantly gay Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.

Most compatible with: Flaming Uke, Badass Uke

Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

Told you I was seme, tildy101 . AND I didn't cheat.

Still not sure if I want to get back into blogging. Atm, I'm too busy it seems. Occupied with trying to get the best results I can in school and exams. I got a job, I suppose, at a chinese takeaway store, and that's keeping me busy as well (though, I hate it there, there's NO organisation, none of the workers speak proper english, I was humiliated on my first shift, I'm expected to NEVER make mistakes even though my training was non existent, and as of now I'm only being called in on Saturdays). I'm progressing in art as well, doing commissions for friends so I can save money to buy myself a BJD. :) I've decided I want to get a Migidoll Miho for my character Elepon~ I also have exams next week and fucking hell I know I'm going to get majorly stressed out, especially on my Programming and Japanese exams.


Art wise, I digitally painted this in July. So long ago?




I've been painting with watercolours a lot lately though, rather than digitally. I figured I need to get back into traditional mediums a bit. I just finished a triptych for my major art assessment in water colour as well. 18/20 mark, which makes me really fucking proud because the class is VERY severely marked, and I think it's the highest mark I've gotten in the class all year~ <3

I suppose, when break comes around, I'll occupy myself with finishing some commissions, and practising my anatomy. I'm on a permanent quest to improve my drawing skills and I won't be happy with them until I'm satisfied with my skill level.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GACKT

Here's wishing to another couple of years of amazing talent and crazy antics. ♥♥♥

(on the topic of GACKT (||DDDD;;;;; you noob ♥) all the new songs are amazing. I'm listening to the Flower single at the moment, and both tracks are incredible. When I first heard the Flower preview it didn't excite me at all -  it was so different from what I was expecting (something more like Fragrance tbh). It's my favourite new song lyric wise and I was sort of upset that I didn't like the preview. But ughhhhh after watching the PV I fell in deep love with it.)

I haven't been very active in Gackt (yeah okay I wrote it in caps once, that's enough for me. >xD) lately - I don't hold my breath waiting for news any more. That doesn't mean I don't love him as much as I always have though. ♥ Don't ever think other wise.

I may draw him during the morning~ Or redesign my lj with new scans. Or SOMETHING. \(^o^)/

This entire thread is the most pointless, idiotic wank fest I have ever read.


Especially when you go and read the OPs reply post.

You must have a lot of time on your hands to wank about an artist you supposedly love and that changed your life, stir up a huge bitchy debate, then come back and say "o lol guiz jk jk just wanted 2 dick around with u 4 no apparent reason" to "test" the communities loyalty.
I couldn't give a rats ass if your close friends all know you "like to test people" and you're a "3 year Psych major." Obviously it doesn't show because I don't think I've met anyone more stupid on Dears.


If you want to know the loyalty of the fans, JUST FUCKING ASK US and don't make your first post and introduction into some weird and fucked up exam. Yeah some of us seem to be in the fandom only because hey, the man's fucking gorgeous, but that doesn't mean DEDICATED PEOPLE ARE IN IT FOR HIS MUSIC HIM AS A N ACTUAL PERSON RATHER THAN A SEX OBJECT.
Youtube comments = stupid preteens creaming themselves. We aren't all like that. Some of us aren't absorbed in his fucking penis, also.
Don't make a stupid pointless wank post to "figure it out." Just GTFO of the Gackt fandom and stop embarrassing yourself and him.




Not to mention, don't diss on Koakuma. >8\

Whoa it's been a long time since I last posted in here. :O

I'm not dead, far from it. Jusssttttt I haven't really had the... idk energy and motivation to be active on the internet and post things. All the fire I had a few months ago has sort of died down into embers and I haven't been doing much as far as the "pursuit of improvement" concept is involved. I've been drawing on paper on and off but have hardly touched Photoshop properly for a while. I guess I have been writing, some what.

What is new, what is new. I finished the anime Kuroshitsuji, and I'm waiting for the next scanlated chapter of the manga to come out. I love Ciel so hard, he's well designed as a character.


I got a hair cut. 8) This is the shortest length I've had for years.
( Pics or it didn't happen )

What else.
I doubt anyone would remember but I was invited to a prestigious art course at the National School of Art down in Sydney for a studio practice - a taste of art college life. Students invited had to submit an array of work for screening process, to see if they were able to get in. If I was selected I'd have to fly down - or take a train - and spend a number of nights in a hotel in Sydney, doing Life Drawing in my birthcity.

Let's just say, life is a bitch and a lot of other obviously better artists applied.

I'm over it. Once the initial emoness, depression and utter disappointment passed... well, I'm trying not to think about it. Over everything, I'm angry at myself for actually thinking it would work out - not to be pessimistic, but I should have learnt by now that nothing ever goes my way and life is always chucking massive curveballs at me. Well, at least I'm much more emotionally and psychologically stable than I was last year, which I guess is something.

My visual arts teacher is adamant that I try out for some work experience in Brisbane with digital art or animating or something next year and I'm cool with that. My plans for life after graduation is pretty much set in stone and it means I'm going to have to sacrifice a lot of things and move out of my comfort zone but, it's what I want to do and I'm going to try and persue it as hard as I can. I need to get a job, first off, so I can save a sum of money. Once I leave school I'm aiming to move to either Sydney or Brisbane - this city I live in now is a hole and it's choking me with it's noxious petit-bourgeois fumes. Gonna rent out an apartment, possible with some friends, and I'll sleep on the floor if I have to. I need a scholarship to a college though as I literally, have no money at all set aside for university. At least in Australia I can go on "HECs" which helps with tuition fees.

What do I want to do? I'm lame. My dream job is doing artwork or concept art in a game development team. I've always adored Blizzard Entertainment and the "Sons of the Storm" artists sort of started that want to get into professional concept artwork. Movie artwork sounds great fun too.

For now I'm going to keep drawing and improving. I'm relying on time for me to get better. I don't think of myself as a great artist, but I hope I'm somewhat decent enough - as long as I keep drawing, painting, photoshopping, I'm going to improve.


What else is there to say? Koakuma Heaven is the most awesome song in the history of awesome and I love it. Gackt is looking amazing lately.
I need a computer upgrade too. I want to experience the amazing graphics of Starcraft II (when it comes out) and Sims 3 (which I now own but haven't played around with much because my pc specs obviously aren't powerful enough for it).

Hummmmm I've been watching a lot of anime over the past few days. This is pretty rare for me since I don't watch or read much anime at all - most of it annoys me, to be honest, and I don't have the energy to sit through episode after episode. I avoid all shoujo (god those stupid stock anime expressions make me want to punch someone. =_____=) and stick with shounen - usually of the dark, supernatural kinds, like Hellsing and Death Note.

( D.Gray-man fangirling )

( Kuroshitsuji fangirling )

I forgot to mention that I have that artblog I was talking about getting. :D

shadowdanced 

So uhhhh..... if you have any interest in my artwork, doodles, sketches and WIPs, go there and like... friend and comment. x) I don't want to spam here with endless posts of little drawings.



Oh.... I don't really know why I'm posting this here, but maybe people will get a bit of fluff from it.
It's a fic for the AU marshmellorobot and I play around with. Elepon is my own character - he's usually around 30 in my own story but he's 18 in this modern AU - and Misaki - who's 16 - is Marshmello's. :3 Greta is Misaki's guardian and he lives with her. Ryuusuke is Elepon's room mate - he goes to college and has parents who are fairly wealthy, so he has a car while cheapo Elepon doesn't.
It's got a bit of shounen-ai/boylove, but no smut or anything particularly graphic. More fluff.