Whoa it's been a long time since I last posted in here. :O
I'm not dead, far from it. Jusssttttt I haven't really had the... idk energy and motivation to be active on the internet and post things. All the fire I had a few months ago has sort of died down into embers and I haven't been doing much as far as the "pursuit of improvement" concept is involved. I've been drawing on paper on and off but have hardly touched Photoshop properly for a while. I guess I have been writing, some what.
What is new, what is new. I finished the anime Kuroshitsuji, and I'm waiting for the next scanlated chapter of the manga to come out. I love Ciel so hard, he's well designed as a character.
I got a hair cut. 8) This is the shortest length I've had for years.
( Pics or it didn't happen )What else.
I doubt anyone would remember but I was invited to a prestigious art course at the National School of Art down in Sydney for a studio practice - a taste of art college life. Students invited had to submit an array of work for screening process, to see if they were able to get in. If I was selected I'd have to fly down - or take a train - and spend a number of nights in a hotel in Sydney, doing Life Drawing in my birthcity.
Let's just say, life is a bitch and a lot of other obviously better artists applied.
I'm over it. Once the initial emoness, depression and utter disappointment passed... well, I'm trying not to think about it. Over everything, I'm angry at myself for actually thinking it would work out - not to be pessimistic, but I should have learnt by now that nothing ever goes my way and life is always chucking massive curveballs at me. Well, at least I'm much more emotionally and psychologically stable than I was last year, which I guess is something.
My visual arts teacher is adamant that I try out for some work experience in Brisbane with digital art or animating or something next year and I'm cool with that. My plans for life after graduation is pretty much set in stone and it means I'm going to have to sacrifice a lot of things and move out of my comfort zone but, it's what I want to do and I'm going to try and persue it as hard as I can. I need to get a job, first off, so I can save a sum of money. Once I leave school I'm aiming to move to either Sydney or Brisbane - this city I live in now is a hole and it's choking me with it's noxious
petit-bourgeois fumes. Gonna rent out an apartment, possible with some friends, and I'll sleep on the floor if I have to. I need a scholarship to a college though as I literally, have no money at all set aside for university. At least in Australia I can go on "HECs" which helps with tuition fees.
What do I want to do? I'm lame. My dream job is doing artwork or concept art in a game development team. I've always adored Blizzard Entertainment and the
"Sons of the Storm" artists sort of started that want to get into professional concept artwork. Movie artwork sounds great fun too.
For now I'm going to keep drawing and improving. I'm relying on time for me to get better. I don't think of myself as a great artist, but I hope I'm somewhat decent enough - as long as I keep drawing, painting, photoshopping, I'm going to improve.
What else is there to say? Koakuma Heaven is the most awesome song in the history of awesome and I love it. Gackt is looking amazing lately.
I need a computer upgrade too. I want to experience the amazing graphics of Starcraft II (when it comes out) and Sims 3 (which I now own but haven't played around with much because my pc specs obviously aren't powerful enough for it).