HAPPY BIRTHDAY GACKT

Here's wishing to another couple of years of amazing talent and crazy antics. ♥♥♥

(on the topic of GACKT (||DDDD;;;;; you noob ♥) all the new songs are amazing. I'm listening to the Flower single at the moment, and both tracks are incredible. When I first heard the Flower preview it didn't excite me at all -  it was so different from what I was expecting (something more like Fragrance tbh). It's my favourite new song lyric wise and I was sort of upset that I didn't like the preview. But ughhhhh after watching the PV I fell in deep love with it.)

I haven't been very active in Gackt (yeah okay I wrote it in caps once, that's enough for me. >xD) lately - I don't hold my breath waiting for news any more. That doesn't mean I don't love him as much as I always have though. ♥ Don't ever think other wise.

I may draw him during the morning~ Or redesign my lj with new scans. Or SOMETHING. \(^o^)/

This entire thread is the most pointless, idiotic wank fest I have ever read.


Especially when you go and read the OPs reply post.

You must have a lot of time on your hands to wank about an artist you supposedly love and that changed your life, stir up a huge bitchy debate, then come back and say "o lol guiz jk jk just wanted 2 dick around with u 4 no apparent reason" to "test" the communities loyalty.
I couldn't give a rats ass if your close friends all know you "like to test people" and you're a "3 year Psych major." Obviously it doesn't show because I don't think I've met anyone more stupid on Dears.


If you want to know the loyalty of the fans, JUST FUCKING ASK US and don't make your first post and introduction into some weird and fucked up exam. Yeah some of us seem to be in the fandom only because hey, the man's fucking gorgeous, but that doesn't mean DEDICATED PEOPLE ARE IN IT FOR HIS MUSIC HIM AS A N ACTUAL PERSON RATHER THAN A SEX OBJECT.
Youtube comments = stupid preteens creaming themselves. We aren't all like that. Some of us aren't absorbed in his fucking penis, also.
Don't make a stupid pointless wank post to "figure it out." Just GTFO of the Gackt fandom and stop embarrassing yourself and him.




Not to mention, don't diss on Koakuma. >8\

Whoa it's been a long time since I last posted in here. :O

I'm not dead, far from it. Jusssttttt I haven't really had the... idk energy and motivation to be active on the internet and post things. All the fire I had a few months ago has sort of died down into embers and I haven't been doing much as far as the "pursuit of improvement" concept is involved. I've been drawing on paper on and off but have hardly touched Photoshop properly for a while. I guess I have been writing, some what.

What is new, what is new. I finished the anime Kuroshitsuji, and I'm waiting for the next scanlated chapter of the manga to come out. I love Ciel so hard, he's well designed as a character.


I got a hair cut. 8) This is the shortest length I've had for years.
( Pics or it didn't happen )

What else.
I doubt anyone would remember but I was invited to a prestigious art course at the National School of Art down in Sydney for a studio practice - a taste of art college life. Students invited had to submit an array of work for screening process, to see if they were able to get in. If I was selected I'd have to fly down - or take a train - and spend a number of nights in a hotel in Sydney, doing Life Drawing in my birthcity.

Let's just say, life is a bitch and a lot of other obviously better artists applied.

I'm over it. Once the initial emoness, depression and utter disappointment passed... well, I'm trying not to think about it. Over everything, I'm angry at myself for actually thinking it would work out - not to be pessimistic, but I should have learnt by now that nothing ever goes my way and life is always chucking massive curveballs at me. Well, at least I'm much more emotionally and psychologically stable than I was last year, which I guess is something.

My visual arts teacher is adamant that I try out for some work experience in Brisbane with digital art or animating or something next year and I'm cool with that. My plans for life after graduation is pretty much set in stone and it means I'm going to have to sacrifice a lot of things and move out of my comfort zone but, it's what I want to do and I'm going to try and persue it as hard as I can. I need to get a job, first off, so I can save a sum of money. Once I leave school I'm aiming to move to either Sydney or Brisbane - this city I live in now is a hole and it's choking me with it's noxious petit-bourgeois fumes. Gonna rent out an apartment, possible with some friends, and I'll sleep on the floor if I have to. I need a scholarship to a college though as I literally, have no money at all set aside for university. At least in Australia I can go on "HECs" which helps with tuition fees.

What do I want to do? I'm lame. My dream job is doing artwork or concept art in a game development team. I've always adored Blizzard Entertainment and the "Sons of the Storm" artists sort of started that want to get into professional concept artwork. Movie artwork sounds great fun too.

For now I'm going to keep drawing and improving. I'm relying on time for me to get better. I don't think of myself as a great artist, but I hope I'm somewhat decent enough - as long as I keep drawing, painting, photoshopping, I'm going to improve.


What else is there to say? Koakuma Heaven is the most awesome song in the history of awesome and I love it. Gackt is looking amazing lately.
I need a computer upgrade too. I want to experience the amazing graphics of Starcraft II (when it comes out) and Sims 3 (which I now own but haven't played around with much because my pc specs obviously aren't powerful enough for it).

Hummmmm I've been watching a lot of anime over the past few days. This is pretty rare for me since I don't watch or read much anime at all - most of it annoys me, to be honest, and I don't have the energy to sit through episode after episode. I avoid all shoujo (god those stupid stock anime expressions make me want to punch someone. =_____=) and stick with shounen - usually of the dark, supernatural kinds, like Hellsing and Death Note.

( D.Gray-man fangirling )

( Kuroshitsuji fangirling )

I forgot to mention that I have that artblog I was talking about getting. :D

shadowdanced 

So uhhhh..... if you have any interest in my artwork, doodles, sketches and WIPs, go there and like... friend and comment. x) I don't want to spam here with endless posts of little drawings.



Oh.... I don't really know why I'm posting this here, but maybe people will get a bit of fluff from it.
It's a fic for the AU marshmellorobot and I play around with. Elepon is my own character - he's usually around 30 in my own story but he's 18 in this modern AU - and Misaki - who's 16 - is Marshmello's. :3 Greta is Misaki's guardian and he lives with her. Ryuusuke is Elepon's room mate - he goes to college and has parents who are fairly wealthy, so he has a car while cheapo Elepon doesn't.
It's got a bit of shounen-ai/boylove, but no smut or anything particularly graphic. More fluff.

( Here's some more art, you'll have to click on these to full view. PLEASSSEEEE because the previews do no justice to the insane effort I went to. )


I really want to start up an art journal but I have no idea for a name. I know it's stupid to ask but.... any suggestions? Something cool and poetic.

You know, sometimes I doubt my drawing ability, a LOT.

Back in say.... 2007 I used to post a lot of artwork on the Gaiaonline artwork forums waiting for ego strokes. I got mixed feedback and some really nasty critique. This was both good and bad, because at the same time I learnt how to take constructive criticism to heart but it also completely killed my "artist ego."

I used to draw in really inconsistent quality. One day I might doodle something that turned out looking okay and the next everything I tried looked like shit.

I judge my skill on whether or not I can draw well all the time. Like, I'm constantly thinking, "what happens if all these drawings are just a fluke and I'm really actually insanely bad, in reality?"

I want to get to the point where I can just draw a doodle and have it look amazing. It's what I'm working for. I want to be as good as the artists on deviantart, as good as the conceptual designers for games and movies. It's only then when I'm going to look at what I've done and think, "I can call myself an amazing artist now."


I think I'm getting there, which makes me proud and happy. I've worked hard to get where I am and it's beginning to pay off. Now that I'm decent, drawing has become a passion again.





I've been taking a break from Gackt and jrock the past couple of weeks. My writing muse has come back after a year (EleponxMisaki ddaaawwww <3<3<3) and I'm feeling more creative again. I actually WANT to write. Gackt seems to be a plug when it comes to my creative juices because my mind is so occupied with him and not with fic ideas and characters.

Well, my Autumn break is coming soon. I think I'll dedicate that time to art and writing, rather than fangirling.

Drawing smut is really, really fun.
>8)